Tuesday, August 31, 2010
Jesse recently joined Olivia the BandSince I met jesse three years ago he has been in many many bands, The Hell Camino's, Make the Change, S1 Atomic. and a bunch of other bands. Olivia is a little more main stream then his usual punk or hardcore band, but i like them. I think it's a great fit for him. but with this change instead of playing the normal late night shows at clubs and bars, his been playing a lot of days shows. 

this weekend they played at hawaii's waterpark. it was recently remolded and they added some new rides so i've been dying to go. then i got pregos and couldnt really go on any of the rides so ive been pouting about it for awhile ( why pay 40 bucks admission if i can only go in the lazy river). well one of the perks of Olivia playing at the water park was that we got in for free!!! yah!

I wasn't able to do much more then the wave pool and the lazy river but it was so much fun. i almost died laughing in the wave pool. i forgot how much fun those things are. Jesse got to go down the slides and i relaxed until the show. I wish i had my camera on me but water and electronic dont really mix well

I havent gotten the chance to see them play very often so i was really excited. It was so much fun. I cant help being so proud of my husband every time i see him play. He is so so talented. 

i did happen to have my camera for the show. 

Speaking of how talented Jesse is, he totally sung to our baby he other night. he melts my heart.  

Friday, August 27, 2010
My poor baby girl Rosie Roo had such a rough week. First Jesse put down some new huge roach traps. we are talking ones that last for 18 mons. They are big.  he put them in some pretty hard to reach areas and some not so hard to reach areas. he just thought that rosie would stay away from them. Well the next day i'm about to start a tattoo when i get a call from our roommate nick. I sounded awful and was like "you better get home quick rosie has been eating the roach traps!" I didn't even break down my station i left everything all set up and was out of there in a few mins. once again i was thanking my lucky stars that i live only four blocks from my work.  on the way home i called the vet and he told me to force salt water down her throat and she would vomit up the poison. I called nick and told home to get started. by the time I got there she already swallowed a few tablespoons and new that she didn't like it. It took three of us to force the rest of the water down. which is ridiculous considering we are talking about a 3 pound dog. 

with in a few mins she was puking the most. i cant believe how much poison she ate. She is so small and there was so much in her system. thank god it Nick was home and that she didn't eat it earlier in the day when no one was home. 

after that we were all covered in salt water and poor rosie just wanted to be loved. She got her fair share of cuddle time and when her daddy came home we rushed her out the door to the pet shop. where we lavished doggy treats upon her, vowing never again to be so foolish.  we didn't want to leave her out of our sights for one min so we bought her with us to get some takeout thai food and the poor girl was such a mess she peed her self while sitting on jesse's lap!! it was kinda funny, kinda sad. she was so shaken up. 

So....As if that ordeal wasnt enough for Miss Roo.
 she was also spayed on tuesday. Poor baby.  Now she has this two inch cut down her belly with stitches in it. 

when i picked her up she was not happy, well thats a lie even when she is all doped up she is still so sweet. she was trying to wage her tail and be adorable. But she was all lethargic and moving slow. The drs didn't put a cone on her. they told me to keep an eye on her and if she started licking a lot to bring her in for one. well I knew that would be a problem our dog has a serious licking problem. I asked them if they could please just give me one but they assured me that it would be fine. It wasnt fine by 630pm she had already licked one stitch out and the vet was closed. I was trying to keep an eye on her and stop her from licking but it was jesse's birthday and we had to leave for his party. So we made a home made cone for her. 

she looked adorable. but was not very happy with us. But it was working so with left it on for the night and most of the next day (of coarse the Vet's office was closed so i couldn't bring her in).  she is doing much better now. she cant really jump up on anything and wants extra attention which i'm more then willing to give.

I totally thought that today was 18 wks until i got my weekly email update saying 19 wks!! wow this is going buy so fast. Baby girl is kicking up a storm now. I love feeling her little kicks it makes me smile every time i feel her. it's just crazy knowing that there is something totally alive in my belly! 

Your baby weighs about 8 1/2 ounces and measures 6 inches, head to bottom — about the size of a large heirloom tomato. Her arms and legs are in the right proportions to each other and the rest of her body now. Her kidneys continue to make urine and the hair on her scalp is sprouting. A waxy protective coating called the vernix caseosa is forming on her skin to prevent it from pickling in the amniotic fluid. Your baby's sensory development is exploding! Her brain is designating specialized areas for smell, taste, hearing, vision, and touch. Some research suggests that she may be able to hear your voice now, so don't be shy about reading aloud, talking to her, or singing a happy tune if the mood strikes you.

Jesse is going to be so siked on the hearing part.  every week he has been talking and singing to my belly. Finally jelly bean can hear him. I hope she likes his singing.  We also started reading Narnia to her. It's kinda just a cute thing Jesse and i do to past the time but i think she listens. 

I was suppose to have my first appt with our doula tonight but she had to cancel because another mommy went into labor tonight. I wish i was that far along already. I cant wait to meet our baby doll. 

I'm getting really frustrated with clothing lately. im at that point wear my regular clothing isn't fitting anymore but im not wear maternity cloths yet. I totally dont know how to dress for my body right now. I'm a total fish out of water. I have to admit i just feel like i look fat not pregnant. I want my belly to be more obvious. I know, I know i'll get there. I grateful that im still small because if not i'd be that much bigger in the end but im just in the awkward stage right now. 

so i know i need to start posting weekly pictures of my belly. I havent been taking pictures yet but im gonna try to start. 

here is a picture of me a few weeks ago before i was really showing. (we were going to the beach)
that was two weeks ago. 

this is tonight 

so im starting to show!! haha 


When Jesse a I got married a very generous couple from church gave us their bedroom set. Like the whole set!!! Bed, two end tables and a tall dresser that all went together. It was a huge blessing because we didn't have any furniture and no money to go out and buy new stuff.  Well it's been almost a year and i still love the set but, the dresser didn't handle the move well and is basically falling apart. We can only use three of the five drawers. I've been thinking it's time for an up grade. 

I started my search thinking that i was going to get a Mid century mod style longer dresser. I knew i wanted to be off the ground and have legs and would hopefully be black. My first stop was this really rad furniture store out here called Inspiration. It's kinda like Ikea with better quality furniture. I remembered seeing a dresser in there that Jesse and i liked similar to what i wanted...well i found that dresser and it was 1400 dollars!!! way way to much. second stop thrift store. one extreme to the next. 

I didn't find a Mid century mod dresser and i was about to give up when i saw something sitting in the corner. it wasnt my color or style but it was the right shape! I knew i could refinish it and stain it black with some work. and the best part is that it has claw feet!! So i bought it and got to work. 

First I got it home and striped off all it's parts and hardware. It's pretty much all just screwed together so it was really easy. I took pictures of everything so if i forgot how it went i could just look back.

then i sanded the old finish off. this took forever!!! seriously next time im just going to get a chemical stripper. I didn't want to bother with all the fumes because im pregnant but sanding took about a week no joke. 

finally i got all the old finish off and the wood nice and smooth. I cleaned everything off and it was time to start staining it. I picked a  black semi gloss that still allows to grain of the wood to show through 

while that was drying i painted our bed room 

then my Amazing husband put all the hardware back on for me.

all done!! it was a lot of work but it looks great and i love it even more because i made it!! 


Monday, August 23, 2010

“I’ve learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel.” -Maya Angelou mamma sparrow  put this quote up on her blog and i couldn't agree with it more. so i figured i'd share it with you.  enjoyxoxo 
Sunday, August 22, 2010
Geeze, the weeks are just flying by here. almost half way there. Well I owe you guys an update and i've been a super busy mamma this week so so much has happened. but first baby stuff. 

our baby girl is approximately 5 1/2 inches long (about the length of a bell pepper) and weighs almost 7 ounces. she's busy flexing his arms and legs. 

I started feeling her move on thursday! I'm so happy to be feeling her move around throughout the day. it makes me feel more connected to her. the first time i was sure it was her moving around was at the ultrasound dr's. Right before they started she gave a nice big kick!! ahh it was so cute, and there was no mistaking it for gas bubbles. poor Jesse kept trying to catch her moving around but to no avail. he started saying that jelly bean didn't like him. well finally friday night he felt a tiny kick, then last night he felt a nice big kick. I think she was telling him she loves him!!

today we met with our midwife. we've decided to deliver our baby at home. Before everyone freaks out our midwife is a DR!! she will be bringing everything that the would have at the hospital to our house and things will be very very safe, actually safer then if we were at a hospital. I will not just be sitting at house doing this unsupervised on my own. I'm just clarifying this because there is a lot of miss understanding about home births. one of my friends hear i was having the baby at home and said "what are you just gonna wait around and hope god does everything for you?" Not at all although i'm sure god could get it right. 
according to studies hospital births are not necessarily safer than home births. Healthy low risk women who wish to deliver at home have no increased risk either to themselves or to their babies. For low-risk women, home birth should remain a safe and natural option

  1. Hospital interventions such as induced labor and stimulation of labor by oxitocin have greatly increased in the last nine years. Also, "Ninety percent of American hospitals with 100 beds or more provide 24-hour obstetric anesthesiology services, and the epidural rate in some tertiary hospitals is now approaching 100%
  2.  Without the presence of specific scientific need the use of many procedures, technologies, medical tests, and multiple medications are unwarranted. Many of these interventions care risks to both mother and baby.
  3.  when giving birth in a hospital the nurses do not provide the needed comfort, attention and information. There is a need for change in the work of the perinatal nurse. The perinatal nurse should be more attentive, sensitive, understanding, supportive, and informative to the woman in labor.
  4. Other routine hospital procedures such as restricted eating, drinking, movement and the use of intravenous fluids have little if any positive effect. All in all the standard hospital procedures that have become a common way of giving birth go against nature's design.
  5. Giving birth in a familiar surroundings makes a woman more calm and relaxed.
  6. At home, the woman has the freedom to move around and to choose any position that makes her comfortable. It could be anything - sitting, squatting, standing, where as in the hospital supine position with head of bed elevated mostly used. The hospital position is really not the best option compared to the natural physiologic position. 
  7. One of the most common complications of an epidural block is labor process and fetal descent may be slowed, pushing efforts in the 2nd stage may be less effective and the use of forceps or a vacuum extractor is more common.
  8. After the birth, the baby is never taken from its mother's side. The entire family can climb into a clean bed for a much needed cuddle and nap. The emotional bonding that takes place in the moments after birth between mother and child and between the baby and the entire family promotes well being, encourages breastfeeding and speeds recovery of the mother.
  9. Each family becomes accustomed to its own household germs and develops a resistance to them. Since fewer strangers are likely to be present at a homebirth than at a hospital birth, the chances of acquiring foreign germs are less likely in a homebirth situation. 
  10. Hospital caused infections rates are climbing.  Health Care Organizations, are failing to enforce infection control standards — compromising the health of hospital patients. 
these are only a few of my reason to do a home birth. There are many many more reasons. ( as i was writing this i got a call from my aunt. she was even  worried about my decision to do a home birth) I know that in this day and age it seems very strange and uneducated even medieval to go the route of a home birth. I can promise you this isn't a uneducated choice. we have read tons of book on it. we are using the same dr/midwife that a few of my other friends have used and delivered health happy babies.  Even though I have a midwife i'm also seeing a regular professional Ob/gyn Dr. throughout my entire pregnancy for a backup. and finally I live practically across the st from the hospital. If at any point things start going towards high risk i will be having a hospital birth.  I just think that every person deserves the right to the right birth for them. For me I do not feel comfortable having my baby at a hospital. i believe there will be less risk, stress, trauma, interventions and pain at home. 

here are some interesting links to check out on the topic 

I loved this documentary the business of being born.

this book is amazing the Birth Book

 good sites http://www.americanpregnancy.org/labornbirth/midwives.html

Sunday, August 15, 2010
So tonight i came across my friend Bean Pie's blog. I didn't even know that he had one. it's not fancy no pretty pictures, no decorative background, just his thoughts. I have known bean pie for years and years it seems like we watched each other grow from teenagers to young adults and know grown ups even.  Something i have always admired about bean pie is his ability to always be there for a friend. he will literally at the drop of a dime drop every thing and be there for you.  while reading his blog i could help remembering all the times he has been there for me and thinking how lucky i am to have him as a friend. 

He wrote in one entry about our friend paul who took his own life my first year living in hawaii.  If you've every lost a good friend you know how the sting never really goes away. It was hard to read about paul but bean pie made a good point about how paul's death brought us all together. maybe that's why we are all so close even if we go years without seeing each other, im not sure. I just know i'm so thankful for the friends that i have. 

the last time i saw bean pie he flew out here for our wedding. in his blog he writes that, that trip changed/saved his life. I wonder if my friends know that all the help and even just them making the trip out here changed my life. even tonight Jesse and i went out and like so many nights our wedding became the topic of conversation.it's always about how much fun it was and how it was a dry wedding and still people had a blast...i dont accredit that to my superb event planning skills...it's because our friends are real and love and care for each other. that is where people feel safe and can be fools and have fun. 

i guess i'm just having a sentimental night. we go to an engagement party....I come home to find out my friends are raising money to fly me out to NJ for a baby shower....then i read Bean pie's blog...plus im pregnant!!! bring on the tears. 

here are some of my favorite friend time pictures...i wish i could go father back then these but my pictures arent on this computer. 



Saturday, August 14, 2010
I recently did this photo shoot with the talented Beth Souza from BLS Imaging.  I was totally worried that my baby belly would be at that stage where it just makes you look fat instead of pregos but i think these photos turned out amazing. Beth is the only photographer i have worked with that still uses old school film over digital. I think the results speak for its self. gorgeous! I'm still waiting to see a whole roll of black and white that we shot too!! i'll post them up when i get them 

I totally look like my mom in this one...adorable 

Friday, August 13, 2010
 Our baby weighs about  5 ounces now (about as much as a turnip), and she's around 5 inches long from head to bottom. She can move her joints, and her sweat glands are starting to develop. I cant be sure that i'm feeling her move yet... they say it feels like gas bubbles. so im not sure is it the gas bubbles or baby doll kicking me?? Im sure as she gets stronger and bigger her movements will become more distinct. i really cant wait to feel her for sure. last night as we were laying down for bed i thought i felt her move. I said something about it to jesse and i've never seen him move so fast. he threw rosie off my belly and put his hand there. we waiting in silence for a few mins but nothing happened. poor guy he was so excited. 

I really cant believe that im this far along already. the time just keeps on going by so fast. i'm almost halfway there now. I have to sleep on my sides now. which is awful for me. sleeping has become really hard for me. i wake up about every two hours to pee then it takes me 30 mins to find a comfortable position to be in on my side then i finally fall back asleep just to repeat the cycle in a few hours. 

goodies i got in the mail today!!! 

I also got some cute booties in purple from the same seller, Five Sisterz. I love these! i cant wait to see them on baby doll's feet. I mean baby shoes are kinda pointless since she wont be walking any where but you cant deny how adorable they are. 

I actually ordered this before i knew her gender from truly sanctuary. I've just got to represent the tattoos!! you can be sure to see more tattoo inspired baby stuff to come. 


Thursday, August 12, 2010
Like is said earlier if your gonna live in Hawaii your going to see a lot of people come and go. I've lived here a little over four years now and I have met some people that will be in my life forever even though they have moved away.  You kinda just get use to having going away parties and dropping people off at the airports, but just because you get use to it doesn't mean it's easy. 

My wedding was about 9 mons ago. I had 6 brides maids. only one of them was a girl that i knew before i moved to hawaii. out of those six only 2 are still living here!!! it the past year i have seen so many of my friends leave. I'm still not over Kelli monster leaving a few months ago, and tonight i had to say goodbye to  another amazing friend Mia. 

i've known Mia for a few years now but it wasnt until this past year that we became close. I wish we didn't waste so much time. some of my favorite times spent with her are when we pick on nick together. it's not the easiest thing to meet people that you really hit it off with and i'm gonna miss her a lot. 

We had a really nice sending off dinner at mia's favorite restaurant Hale tonight. you can read her blog entree about the restaurant here . It was a really low key night. Just me and jesse and nick and mia. On valentines day we double dated there and tonight they sat us at the same table so it felt like deja vu. 
we all ate the most food and i left feeling like i was in a food coma. Hopefully Mia felt the same and will sleep a ton on her plane ride. 

Mia we will miss you!!! xoxo

And on another note.  here is my adorable husband who had to rush off to band practice as soon as we got home. err all i wanted to do was cuddle but nope i had to say bye to him too... thankfully just for a few hours. 

jesse....you will also be miss for the next few hours. I love you 

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