Wednesday, September 14, 2011
I love this little girl so much. her personality is really starting to show. everyday she does something new that surprises me. she has just started rolling her tongue and making fart noises. both totally melt my heart. 

She is getting so big. at night when i feed her it's so hard to imagine her fitting inside my belly. I wish I could slow down time. 


Last week another one of my friends moved away from Hawaii. I know i've said it before but it kills me to watch my friends go. This time was especially hard. 

When i moved to Hawaii 5 yrs ago. I didn't know a soul. It was a huge scary move and I never thought I would make it out here without my friends. I've always been blessed with incredible friends and they mean the world to me. I come from a super small family so my friends are totally family to me. Leaving them behind was super hard for me. 

A few months after I moved out here my best friend James followed suite. It was so good to have a familiar face around. Hawaii is more then perfect but it's nothing if you have no one to experience it with. It was just me and James for awhile until we started to make a small group of friends. That small but incredible group will always hold a special place in my heart. They helped define hawaii for me, taking this perfect place and making it home for me. 

My second year another close friend from NJ, Skott,  was added to our group.  He has been here ever since then and last week I had to say good bye. 

I've known Skott pretty much my whole life.  We met as two punk kids hanging out at the mall and going to shows in NJ. Anyone who knows Skott knows it's either a love or hate relationship. There is no one like him. He is one of the loudest most obnoxious people I have ever met. It's something I love dearly about him. Anyone who has ever been in the same vicinity as him could tell you that he demands attention and will get it forcibly if he has to.  He doesn't ever care what anyone thinks about him. He speaks his mind and isn't concerned with who it's going to offend. I adore his honestly and boldness. when most people are spending time on their image Skott is just busy being him self. that's what makes him something to be sought after.  He is famous for acting first and thinking later.  But these are all things anyone would know about him by spending 5 mins with him. 

Here are some things I have learned about him by spending close to 15 yrs with him. He never gives up on you once your his friend. He is loyal and caring. He doesn't know it but he is very very smart. I think he could be good at anything he tries to do because he puts all of his heart into it. He is one of the hardest workers I have ever known. He is always down to have fun and having him around is the life of the party.  He is my best friend and I've always had him and James close by me. They are my brothers. I  Have no idea who I would be without them or where I would be with out them. they have both help me get through harder times then I hope anyone ever has to deal with.  With out them I would be lost. 

this is the first time the three of us have really be apart and i hope it's only for a short time. 

i love you guys. 

here's the video from his band Die Slow's last show. At the beginning of it he dedicated the band to me and i cried the most!! I'm so proud of him and hope his new band on the main land does amazingly 

Die Slow - 9/3/11 @ 4Play from Jon Wong on Vimeo.

Sunday, September 11, 2011
"Christianity, if false, is of no importance, and if true, of infinite importance. The only thing it cannot be is moderately important."
C. S. Lewis
Saturday, September 10, 2011
Hey guys. I'd like to introduce you all the my next featured blogger, Amber from I Love you to the Moon. I just love her blog and all the inspiring things she has to say. You know I'm a sucker for tattoos and she has some pretty adorable ones. So I hope you go check out her blog and give her some love. 

1.What does Beauty mean to you?
Ahh. Beauty is so hard to define. Everyone has their own vision of beauty. Most define being beautiful as outward qualities – slim, muscular, long hair, dark hair, light hair, blue eyes, green eyes ect. I really have found that true beauty lies within a person. While yes, God did create some very very physically beautiful people – He is an amazing artist, a beautiful heart wins me over every time. A heart that is soft and moldable, passionate and tender is a beautiful thing.

2. Have you ever struggled with comparing yourself to other women? Can you share some of your secrets for overcoming that battle?
I have definitely struggled with this. I think almost every girl has. There is something inside of us that longs to be beautiful, desirable, and wanted. There are also so many different opinions on what beauty is, that if we allow it, it sort of throws us around and drives us a little crazy. If I tried to be what every person thought was beautiful, I would be a big huge contradiction. Instead I have to focus on who I want to be. I surely don’t want to be immodest and dress inappropriate to draw attention to what some think is beautiful. I know who I am, and I know that I am beautiful. There are so many beautiful women in this world, and it’s so neat just how beautifully different we all are! I have so many beautiful women in my life, and I’m so thankful for them. Each one has taught me something different about being a woman of God, I love that.

3. When do you feel the most beautiful, and when do you feel the most insecure?
I feel most beautiful when I focus on how beautiful I am to God. He finds me beautiful. I think that’s enough of a reason to believe it- and I do, and it makes me incredibly happy.
When I put my worth in worldly things, insecurities start creeping in. I have found that I can find my identity in nothing but God alone. Nothing good comes from seeking approval from others. It always leaves me dissatisfied with myself.
4. How do you stay confident in who you are?
I know that God created me just how I am supposed to be. I love that He finds me delightful, oh that makes my heart swell. So who am I to say otherwise? It makes me love myself even more knowing just how much he takes pleasure in me.  This verse has been pretty life changing for me and floods my heart every time I read it – “Your love delights me, my treasure, my bride.” Song of Solomon 4:10
Something about knowing that I delight my God makes me want to dance. I am his treasure. He enjoys me, wants me, and finds me beautiful. Fills my heart all the way up.

5. Any advise to girls struggling with their self image?
Focus on positive things. Be a good friend to yourself. You would never be friends with someone that consistently put you down and called you names, so don’t do that to yourself! Pick out a few things that you really like about yourself and focus on those things. At one point, I made a list of things I liked about myself. Putting it down on writing made me focus on those things and was pretty therapeutic also. I’d read it every morning and add a new item every day. For some reason it’s so much easier to pick our selves apart than to pick things we appreciate. I found it easier when I started thanking God for making me just how I am, just how He wants me, to actually appreciate all the little things about myself.


Wednesday, September 7, 2011

This family loves the beach. It's one of my favorite things about living in hawaii. Jovi is totally becoming  a beach bum. She just loves the water. I can never get enough of her adorable gummy smiles every time a wave hits her, or hows she throws her arms up in excitement and giggles when she gets splashed.  

all tuckered out after a tiring day at the beach! I wish she always napped like this. 
Thursday, September 1, 2011

So sorry I've been missing. The last week and a half has been a blur. I have, gone to a birthday party,  a going away party,  Gotten Jovi's first shots, A youth group lock in, Planned a huge surprise birthday party for jesse, Gone to a bachelorette party, planned a bridal shower, mean while working and talking care of Jovi. As a result I'm the most sick. I'm actually leaving in a few mins to go to the doctors. I just wanted to give a heads up first as to why I've been mia. 

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